Wordsmith Poem – Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

Words have power, sharing our experiences and perspectives on mental health is a great way of building understanding and community. In wordsmith guest blogs we have some amazing writers that share their thoughts and experinces with mental health.

Another super talented guest author today Thank you Leanne Evans. You can check out Leannes work following her (Pen Name Georgina Bluebell)  – Instagram/Twitter or on her website: www.georginabluebell.co.uk 

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder by Leanne Evans

You crawled aimlessly into my life when I didn’t want, or need you,
I was young and welcomed you with open arms, thinking you were a friend,
How was I to know, the extensive damage you would cause?

Like a spider you spun a web of lies, made me believe I was unworthy,
Low self-esteem and confidence, vulnerable beyond compare.
You sat there laughing my nameless friend!

You convinced me to self-harm and become a different person,
To whom I was meant to be.
You made others see me as weak and a human to be exploited.

You continued this tirade until I seen through you;
I now know your name, yet you continue to haunt me.
No cure they tell me, but controllable you are.

Medications they throw at me to hide the symptoms and to continue functioning, as a human being,
But I feel you, like an unreachable itch,
That continues to aggravate my senses and control parts of my life.

Medications they throw at me to hide the symptoms and to continue functioning, as a human being,
But I feel you, like an unreachable itch,
That continues to aggravate my senses and control parts of my life.

I have never seen your face, yet I despise and am thankful to you,
For the despair I have been through and the fight you have given me.

I know you will always be there, clinging to my brain, your nails dug into most aspects of my life.
You claw at my senses, yet I’ll never let you win.
COMPLEX POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER,
You are nothing and I am all.

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